i have a personal dilemma I have been trying to resolve/ solve for months and especially in the past few weeks: SO my freshman year in college roomate, someone who I eventually ended up getting super duper close with, and her family even took me in my first christmas of college and her Nana knitted me a stocking and they bought me presents and always gave me a place in their home if I needed it, is getting married this weekend. I however openly oppose this relationship, that of which she has had for the last 2 years and barely knows the guy. Also during the time of she and he getting closer, distance between she and I had grown at a rate like never before. We went from hanging out every single day and night and having amazing laughs and fun times to me texting her and not getting any response back. over a period of about a year I saw her between 2 and 5 times maybe 3 of which i labored to schedule around her constantly evasive additude. I basically have to decide if I am going or not. She is someone I love. I appreciate everything our relationship and friendship ever contained and encompassed. She is a very important person in my life and I just dont think this marriage is the best for her. I think shes doing it to avoid other areas of her life and she is doing it because she thinks its what she is supposed to do rather than what she wants to do. I want to go to the reception and be supportive of HER and show HER that I still love her and value our friendship but I dont think I can fake it through the ceremony itself. I do not like the man she is marrying and I do not support the marriage. she has known this since they got engaged a little less than a year ago and she and I sat down and had a heart to heart. she didnt seem to care and didnt seem to value our friendship enough. she called it quote ” An effort” and said that she didnt want to make the effort it took to sustain it. but continued to show affection and likeable feelings of companionship and comradery toward me when we would go out for drinks or talk on occasion. This is someone I think I could have in my life for the rest of my life and I just feel so terribly conflicted and it hurts. I love her and when I let people in enough to truely say that I love them, and I have felt as close at times with ehr family as I had in the past with my BFF of 16 year’s family. I just dont know what to do. I know the wedding isnt all about me and clearly she doesnt give a fuck if I support the relationsip or not but I just think that when you are as close as you have been with people like we were u should value their instincts and listen to them when they are apprehensive about someone. HALP
i have had like 0 sex drive lately.
the first time in my post pubesent life…fucking STRANGE as fuck to realize. like i just have 0 urge to masterbate and definitely dont every day anymore and it used to be SO enjoyable and a completely understandable sub for sex but now its more like just 1/3 of the sensation i used to get and it blows. only sex will satisfy that and that is like so not happening right now. bleh
Parks and rec and Royal teeth work when I’m upset!!!! As well as fall smelling candles, yoga and reaching out to friends (when it doesn’t stress me out). Happy Friday yall